I’ve been a virgin since I was 19 and I have no idea how many men I’ve slept with.
I’ve never told anyone about it, but I don’t think I have a good answer.
It’s the biggest mistake of my life.
In October, I got married to a man I’d been seeing for six years.
We lived together for six months and we’re still together today.
But after the wedding I was diagnosed with breast cancer.
My boyfriend had also been diagnosed with cancer.
We had to go through surgery.
We spent six months on chemo, then he went into remission, but the chemotherapy stopped working.
After the surgery, I felt fine, but then it got worse.
The cancer started spreading again and he was getting worse.
We went into a waiting room and he started coughing.
Then, the chemo stopped.
He couldn’t even breathe.
When we tried to call him, he was too weak to talk to us.
So I took my phone out and rang him.
I told him I was sick and couldn’t go on living, that I was having my period and that I couldn’t tell anyone about what was happening.
Instead of speaking to him, I gave him the number to my mum, who has two older sisters.
I was worried that I’d be accused of lying, but she’s very supportive and she told me that he was okay.
Soon after, I started seeing another woman, who I’d known since I got my husband’s blessing.
She was married and living with her boyfriend and they had children.
She said that she’d never seen anything like it before, and that she wanted to make sure it didn’t happen again.
During the first year after the diagnosis, I went from a virgin to a virgin again.
I’d have to go back and change my boyfriend’s number and get his permission to sleep with anyone else.
A year after that, I was living with a man who’d been diagnosed as having breast cancer and who was very much a virgin.
For the first time in my life, I decided to give up the idea of being a virgin for life.
I went online and researched my options.
I found several men who seemed to be happy to sleep around and who seemed not to care about me at all.
They didn’t seem interested in my sexual history, which is usually something I’ve got a problem with.
It was clear that they weren’t interested in sex.
One night I got the message: ‘Hi, I’m in the same situation as you.
I’ve just had my first period.
It’s been awful and I don,t want to have sex with you any more.
Would you mind sharing your number?’
I replied: ‘What’s the matter, you can’t share your number.
I have to be a virgin now.’
I was shocked, because it was the only option I had.
I had a huge reaction.
This time I tried to stay silent, but it wasn’t easy.
My boyfriend was furious.
I felt guilty, but when he saw that I felt it, he started to cry.
I realised that he couldn’t stop me.
I cried and cried and we talked for a long time.
On the day I got home, I told my mum about what had happened.
‘I know what you’re thinking, but there’s nothing I can do about it,’ she told him.
‘I think it’s best for you to stay with your boyfriend and you can just keep your number.’
She reassured me that I wasn’t the only one.
Three months after that I started getting messages from some of my old friends asking me to meet them.
It seemed like a big deal.
I thought, ‘Oh, my God.
This is the big one.
This isn’t going to happen to me.’
I met a woman who told me she’d been with someone else and that the person she was sleeping with had died.
At first I didn’t want to meet the woman, but as time went on, I realised it wasn